The weight of the law

Sometimes I feel like those old commercials where they say, 'I’m not a doctor but I play one TV." Only I would say, "I’m not a Christian, I just play one on a blog." [...] Why? Because my thought that God loves me when I have a "good month" is so opposite of what grace is. [...] For weeks I white knuckle my way through life convinced that living [...] is about being perfect, not forgiven. I hold it together. For a while at least, but then the pressure of performing crushes me. Being perfect gets so heavy. I can’t do this. I can’t.

~"The problem with the pigpen," by Jon Acuff (Stuff Christians Like)